37 Weeks

As of tomorrow, we are 10 days from the arrival of our Rainbow. I have many mixed emotions, but I truly cannot wait to hold a living breathing on its own baby in my arms. As I've said before, I may not let go! :)
Today was my 37 week appointment. I realized on the way there that it is the last time I will see my primary doctor before he delivers the baby on the 22nd as he's going on vacation next week. I had a non-stress test today. During this test, the OB sonographer came in to wish me well. I've formed some pretty strong bonds with people. They all wish us well. From my first appointment, my doctor told me that it is the wish of the entire office that everything go smoothly for us--that no one deserves it more. Well, I think that is a little strong, but it was really nice nonetheless. Thus far, their wishes (and ours of course) have come true--a relatively easy uncomplicated pregnancy. The baby was very active. Its baseline heart rate was 130 today. Tonight I think it is a boy, but as I change my mind all the time regarding the sex of this baby, I'm sure I'll thinking differently tomorrow at least some point in the day... :)
My mind races sometimes when I actually stop to think about the coming of this baby. When I think about it, I worry so I try not to think about it. Work is so incredibly busy that I don't have any time to think about it there except for when the residents ask me about it, but those are pretty quick conversations. This baby has a ton of "grandparents" at Sunnycrest that care so much about this baby and our family. They are all praying very hard for a healthy baby. One of them even gave me the St. Jude Thaddeus novena prayer card. She has it memorized from last time around that she said it so many times for Sylvia and me.
I write about my worry sometimes in my journal that I will someday give this child. I mostly write about all the joy and happiness this child is bringing me. I never want this child to feel inferior--like he/she was created to "replace" their angel sister--NO WAY! I would never want that! Each child is unique and beholds their own individuality. I do believe this child will have pieces of Sylvia within it just as it will of Will just as all of us "inherit" certain traits from our parents and siblings.
The countdown is on now! Please lift us in prayer especially the baby. I don't think I'll truly rest for about a year now. At SHARE group last night, a couple moms that have had healthy babies after their loss spoke about how it went for them. They said they worried the entire pregnancy until the baby is born, cries and is in their arms. Then they worried until they took the baby home. Then it was the first couple weeks. Then it was the first couple months. Then it was the first year. I'm okay with not resting as long as it means a healthy living baby that far outlives both of its parents. Hope all is well with you.
Oh, to the right of the page, I posted how to post a comment. Hope you all can figure it out so we get a few more responses :) I'll probably put the following in all posts until I order the shirts. If you would like to order a Sylvi's Soldiers shirt for $10, let me know how many and size. The more we sell the better--more money will go directly towards CDH research! Getting tired so may try to catch some zzz's now.
With love,
Beth