Today Andy and I celebrated our five year anniversary. We both took the day off. We did send Will to daycare, but this guilty mommy didn't want him to go the whole day. Never have I just taken a day off and sent Will to daycare. I know many moms do this and are fine with it, but I am not. I like to spend every moment I can with Will. I must say that today was very nice though. It was nice to be husband and wife rather than mommy and daddy. We went to the movie "The Hangover" this afternoon. It was so funny! Tonight we went to Galena. We walked the whole strip window shopping and waltzing through the shops. We had dinner at Vinnie Vannuchi's. Delicious! For dessert, we headed to the Rocky Mountain Chocolate Factory where Andy indulged in a Rocky Mountain cluster dipped in dark chocoloate and I in a dipped strawberry covered in white and milk chocolate. What wonderful food they have over there!
I reflected a lot on our marriage today. I believe our marriage has always been strong, but this challenging year has made it even stronger. Each of has broken down our fair share this year. When one breaks down, the other is the rock--strong and solid for the other. We are an unbreakable team. Andy is my everything. I remind myself often that I was first a wife, then a mother. When you have little ones, it is hard to remember that sometimes. I also remember post on care pages how I would never be strong enough to deal with the death of my child, how I would never use the word "strong" to describe me. Well, my mind has changed on that one. I have survived this awful loss. I can admit now that I am strong and downright tough!
While we were in a Galena shop, the song that accompanied our first dance played, "At Last" by Etta James. I thought that may be our angel telling us she was here with us today. Then, out of the corner of my eye, I spied a canvas with a simple but poignant saying on it. It said something close to the following, "Do not wait for the storm to pass; instead, learn to dance in the rain." Then I knew she was there. That short quote speaks volumes to how we feel.
I think all who were at our wedding five years ago would agree that it was a blast! Throughout the day I thought of what we were doing five years ago at the very same time. I am so glad we did it up right. I tell a friend of mine often that seeing her dance with her dad at her wedding made me want a daughter. I can still see the look in their eyes and the proud love in being father and daughter. How I wished this for Andy with Sylvia. I can say that I don't have a wish for one sex or the other with this baby. I just want a healthy living baby that will far outlive both of its parents. However, if it is a boy, I may be open to having one more. MAYBE! Or, I may just rely on my boys to pick some nice wives whom I can call daughter one day. Some daughters aren't blood-related.
Love to you all!
--Beth
Beth just wanted to tell you guys Happy Anniversary. I also want you to know that I think you are the strongest women that I know and I think Andy is very strong I am glas the two of you have that bond. You do have to remember that you are a wife first and a mother second but at the same time you will do anything for your child. I love you guys and hope you have fun next weekend with your family. Love Mickie
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